I first learned about intrusive thoughts when I took a postpartum class a month after giving birth. It’s a common issue that many women can have intrusive thoughts about their baby, like: “What if I threw my baby down the stairs?”. It’s terrifying to think of something awful happening to your child, and these thoughtsContinue reading “Unwanted Intrusive Thoughts”
Category Archives: motherhood
Back to the grind
Have you ever whispered to yourself, “I never thought I would be that parent” when facing certain situations? In the last couple of weeks, I’ve caught myself saying this, especially when my husband set up the play tent we acquired for our ten-month-old. Our ‘never spoil’ mission being thrown out the window almost immediately. WhatContinue reading “Back to the grind”
I do not want to mother on Mother’s Day
Today is Mother’s Day, and I am currently hiding from my family upstairs. I told my husband the day previous that what I wanted was an anti mother’s day. All of the things that I usually do on a day-to-day basis were to fall on his shoulders and not bother me. That includes: No wakingContinue reading “I do not want to mother on Mother’s Day”
Dear Mama
The last few weeks have been challenging and bittersweet. My daughter has been reaching new milestones, and it’s been amazing to watch her grow as a person. Even though I am beaming with pride, I find myself shrouded with guilt and grief. When I left my toxic family home at the age of eighteen, thereContinue reading “Dear Mama”
Motherhood: Organized Chaos
Motherhood is weird and also beautiful. I feel like I’m living smack dab in the middle of ‘always perfect’ and ‘constant struggle’ but also feel like maybe this is just motherhood? (Or Parenthood). I’ve been adjusting, balancing and learning as I go and get easily frustrated when my anxiety breaks down the door without anContinue reading “Motherhood: Organized Chaos”
Anxiety and Parenthood
It’s been 21 weeks since we brought our little one home. I still remember that first night, how her shrieks wouldn’t stop and her tiny face turning blue. I was exhausted and crying, gliding her swaddled body across my chest, thinking that I was already a terrible mother for not being able to comfort her.Continue reading “Anxiety and Parenthood”
Mom Post: Breastfeeding and Anxiety
Coming to terms with my low milk supply due to my G.A.D Nothing really ever goes according to plan, I’ve realized over the last couple of months. I had every intention to breastfeed my daughter until she turned one, but everything changed when I gave birth to her. We had issues with her latching ontoContinue reading “Mom Post: Breastfeeding and Anxiety”
Holy Sh*t I’m a Mom
This has been one hell of a week for me, and even though I mentioned this would not be a mom-centred blog, I am breaking my rule this one time to go over how my anxiety shaped my experience of labour and bringing home my baby. On Wednesday early morning (12:40 am to be exact),Continue reading “Holy Sh*t I’m a Mom”
Battling Prenatal Depression
It’s been hard for me to write this article for the past couple of weeks, for two reasons I have lost the motivation to do what I generally love, including writing I’ve been debating whether or not I should share this The truth is, I’ve been dealing with prenatal depression during my third trimester, andContinue reading “Battling Prenatal Depression”
Pregnancy and Anxiety: Second Trimester
I can’t believe I’m at the end of my second trimester. These months seem to have flown by compared to my first trimester even though I was still going through some significant symptoms. The biggest being my mood swings – oh boy, they have come full frontal in these months. Trying to calm myself downContinue reading “Pregnancy and Anxiety: Second Trimester”
The Gray Space 