One of my biggest triggers is a drastic change; especially when it comes out of the blue. This past week a colleague was laid off due to a corporate reorganization, and I was utterly shocked (not to mention other co-workers as well). I didn’t take it well, we had worked together for almost five years at several jobs and grew a fun & sarcastic friendship. He knew about my anxiety, understood it and always offered advice to combat it. I excused myself from work for the rest of the day and decided that I had cried enough for the both of us.
What would he do in this situation? I tried to ask myself as I paced around my house. I instantly knew what I had to do – I started with jumping jacks, roughly for 10 minutes. INHALER ANDREA his voice echoed in my head as I stopped to grasp for my breath and medicine. For the next 40 minutes, I worked out in our humid house, sweating all of my frustrations out. Two months ago I decided to work out more after losing my breath from running up a flight of stairs. I got nothing but encouragement from him – he was very active himself, and he always lived by moto to keep moving. I felt instantly better afterward, even though I knew the next day I had to adapt to him not being around.
I know at the end of the day that everything happens for a reason, but I still find myself anxious ridden whenever something unexpected happens. Just this act can bring me down as a whole, thinking that I can’t even get something like this under control when other aspects are so much easier to maintain. DON’T BEAT YOURSELF UP I hear as the week continues. Whether it’s my inner voice or his, who knows, but I agree with it and keep on moving.
The Gray Space 